This blog is about computer software (and other things that come to mind to keep it interesting) --- my fascination with it as something with an almost "divine" potential, almost in the same way I see music. Also, it's a glimpse into something that is probably foreign to you and that you wouldn't know about otherwise. Somewhere in the dark corners where I hide. You see I am the last philosopher. And the only reason why I allow this at all is because I made a kind of mistake in my life and also realized kabbalah (which made clear to me that whatever I'm doing in this life, however solemn, is relatively unimportant), so interesting turn of events since I deviated from my path to the stars and ended up here. I'm shamelessly promoting myself until I'm capable of an old seriousness and can look back on this to see what it meant. (also to try blogging and experimenting with socializing a bit to see what I'd not have any other way or reason to find out about)

Thursday, December 29, 2011

The Cream Of Clapton

Eric Clapton. ―Do you know about him?  Well just in case you don't there's this band that he and some guys formed a while ago (Derek and the Dominos) that wasn't really noticed at first but later became a big deal/legend, produced only one album, and it's listed on the greatest albums of all time by Rolling Stone Magazine. 

There's a lot of great songs on this album.  I like these (*) songs:
I Looked Away *
Bell Bottom Blues *
Keen On Growing *
Nobody Knows You When You're Down and Out
I Am Yours *
Anyday *
Key To The Highway
Tell The Truth *
Why Does Love Got To Be So Sad? *
Have You Ever Loved A Woman
Little Wing *
It's Too Late *
Layla *
Thorn Tree In The Garden *

That epic end to the song Layla was written by a guy named Jim Gordon, who was really a popular session drummer In high demand in the 60s/70s.  He later killed his own mother in a psychotic episode, an apparently undiagnosed schizophrenic.  Because of recent changes in California law he wasn't allowed to plead insanity, but has so far spent most of his life sentence in a hospital (  He recalls it like if it was someone else…. (

You should also know about Cream ― the first supergroup according to Rolling Stone (Jann Wenner). 

Hear this:

"I feel free."
I feel free when I listen to this song.

And that song that sounds like In-A-Gadda-Da-Vida (the riff part) is excellent. 

Oh and this.

Sunday, December 25, 2011


What girls want depends entirely on what you want.  And so the reason why they are mean sometimes is because they want to push away from you the very thing you want, and of course they turn around to accuse you of being pointlessly mean, like the stupid and violent male you are.  It's hard for us to believe it though in real time, in the actual event, that when they push you away because they say you just "shouldn't" that it's only because you want it―only, which means you should of course.  It's hard for us to fully understand this; it causes us to disregard our moral upbringing.  Girls don't have thoughts or opinions of their own, they are simply receptive to everything around them, and so they have an impression of love mattering and a sense of what a man should be, to complement what a girl is.  So their notion of responsibility doesn't really apply to themselves, but is a projection of what they think a guy should be.  But they themselves don't know it, understand it.  And in the absence of guys who know what girls don't, guys become the caricature notion of it that girls have (in obedience or acting out).  Because they fail to understand the male constant, which is neither tough or principled, but simply the thing precisely those confused guys would never guess: what they already are, and what girls can never be―honest.  For lack of a better word, if it helps, think honest, good people.  Think of girls as something else.  The apparent contradiction comes when you think of being assertive at the same time, now you must become something immoral, but really it's nothing more than understanding the fact that girls don't have thoughts of their own, but depend entirely on you, your thoughts and your actions. 

To be exact the force that makes them reckless and beautiful at the same time is the force that weighs you down and threatens the purity of your honest nature/spirit.  There is a balance there but it's not practical to think of girls as "people"; that is just another generalization, an example of how girls tend to make a principle out of everything, causing needy people to want to hurry and take sides, and forgetting who and what they are as individuals, which is a threat to our honest lifestyles. 

Friday, December 16, 2011

Can't get with girls?

 "What is the secret to getting with girls?"
You have to hate them. 

To get girls you have to be aggressive.  You find it difficult because they overwhelm you.  You're sentimental. 
You know what else you can't do if you're not aggressive?  Be honest; they try to take that away from you too (honesty is how you corner girls and it's what defines you as a guy).  If you don't hate them for that then you're just one of them, and you should be more submissive, get married, and become the herd that leaves distraught people out in the void of neglect (like christian hell) and that will provoke a world of some who'll rape and cut up your little kids.  But that's what you deserve, and they'll just become apathetic to it, blame others even more, and perpetuate it; if you don't hate this absolute worthlessness then you're like them.  Everyone fights; the herd and women just fight differently.  If you don't think so you're like them.  That's why you have to mistreat them now to prevent all of that.  That's the best way of doing it.  And ignore them if they don't understand it.